So I always set these goals for myself. And I have to stop.
What, stop making goals? Yeah, well if you make the same goal over and over and over again and never get anywhere, you would want to give up too. I mean, just check the dates on these blog posts. Big time lapse, right? Ha. And I started the year off saying I was going to write more, post more, and get myself out there. Well it's time to face reality. I don't have time to release myself into a blog post like I want to be able to. One day I will. I hope soon. I really do love to write even though no one's out there listening. It's kind of comforting knowing my thoughts are out there, forever in internet space, for someone to read sometime, maybe long after I'm gone. Or for my future kids, grandkids, and great grands to find in the future...I want them to know there mom and grandmom had so much more inside her. For them to remember me as being someone special. And to maybe dream about knowing me better like I do my Grandma Ginger and my grandpa Buck Buck. Because let's face it, there's always something more that they aren't telling you. A mystery.
With all that said, I can't stop setting goals. I'm too stubborn. So here it is. I want to try to continue writing on here. Hopefully more frequently this time. And also am starting this sketchbook challenge thing, and hope to post progress on here. I won't be starting tonight because I am in college (which consumes 92% of my life, and work the other 18%) and have a test tomorrow and a few studio projects that I really should be working on but I got inspired to write and sometimes you just have to let it all out. And sometimes there's no one listening. Or maybe I'm the only bloke out there with friends who don't answer the phone. I really should make relationships with better people. But I'm so stubborn, I just can't give up.
I won't give up.
If I give up, what is left?
Nothing.
I can't give up.
I won't give up.
I will go study.
